CONFESSION

I Love SHIM CHANGMIN

I LOVE YOU  

I feel sorry

 Via my twitter, I can see JaeJoong's frustration for being alone during christmas. Not only during Christmas, every single minutes of staying away from the members makes him feel frustrated. I seem more & more in love with TVXQ. I watched some festivals, vids & shows of TVXQ. I'd felt happy if they got award. That feeling is not one time or two times only. Whenever I watch, I feel the same way. I kind of regret that I didn't know about TVXQ during early years. I've known about them very late. But it's not too late, right changmin? I'm trying to know more and more about TVXQ.

I feel really bad if I read news of people saying TVXQ's trio, J.Y.J, & the rest two members separately. Yes, they're not together now & HoMin is under the name TVXQ & continuing their activities. It doesn't mean J.Y.J don't want to be as TVXQ. That's just because of a situation they've started & for their pride. I support JYJ no matter what. People need their own rights. 

TVXQ started with five members, U-know Yunho, Hero JaeJoong, Micky YooChan, and Xiah Junsu & Max Changmin. No matter where they go & what they do, they're TVXQ members as long as they don't say they don't want to. (They will never say it.) 

To Changmin

TVXQ's two members, Yunho & changmin will release their new album in Jan,2011. And also Changmin's drama "Paradise maedow" / "Paradise Ranch" will air in Jan. I'm feeling so happy and annoyed at the same time. I love to watch his drama but he's a married guy in that drama. Yeah, I know that's a drama. But i can't stand it. I hope what all i feel is just imagination or fake only. I wish it won't last long. If not, I'll feel heartbreaking seriously. If someone wants me to upset changmin, you can show a fancam in which his face expressed how he got annoyed because of something and he covered that fancam with his hand. I won't able to forget it.


I know he's also a human & sometimes he needs to rest and he has to take a break. But that's an idols life. He's an idol & doing that makes me upset of him. But falling for him & upsetting him is a dilemma. There's nothing I can't do. 

Now my phone started to lag 'cause I downloaded a lot of phone themes of changmin. LOL My computers' logon screen, wallpaper,custom pictures, websites' profile picture, my MSN/gtalk pictures, phone theme, everything I've to use everyday has changed into changmin. Hopefully, I'm not falling for him~~~

My Thoughts

I'm sure everyone will recognize that changmin's so quiet in shows. He seldom talks but when he does, all are funny & cute. LOL 


He loves to laugh innocently while clapping hands happily. Most of the idols do that as well but they're totally differently from changmin. When changmin's really into some jokes, he'll definitely laugh like that & that kind of time would be the best moment for me. 


On shows, he sits & laughs like a baby while other hyungs are talking about their concerns. He's an idol & i'm just a normal person. Am I too much in my imaginations? He's so strange. I'm totally attracted to him & I'm also wondering myself why I am so into changmin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 


Do I Love him ???????????